Today is one of those days where I feel like a big fat failure. My usually optimistic, we can do it attitude is just tired.
Most days I do feel optimistic and happy. But today I look at my children and can’t seem to look past all of the ways I disappoint them.
Life disappoints them enough. Shouldn’t I be making it better, not worse?
Today is one of those days where I am beyond thankful for my parents. Without whom my boys would not have clothes that fit. Or get to have birthday parties.
But for as much as I am thankful, today is one of those days where it’s hard to see past the fact that I can’t provide those things. For all my hard work. For all the hours I spend at work, after work, on weekends. For the paper on the wall that says I have a Master’s degree. I still barely make what’s considered a living wage.
I still have to make groceries work on $75 a week.
I still have to say no almost every single time.
Most days, we make it work. Most days love is enough. Most days we have fun anyway.
But today I’m struggling.
Today it’s hard to be positive when my children are disappointed. Today it’s hard to not just cry with them.
I know you all have these days. And I know that for me, today will pass. I know that tomorrow things will go back to optimism and a can do attitude.
But for today, I just wanted you to know that when you have those days, you aren’t alone either.
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